Looking into the void

There is a void in my life and I fill it with crap.  I fill it with stuff.  I fill it with people.  I fill it with blogging. ;)
I fill it with activities.

I need the validation.  I need people to tell me: Wow! Youre so amazing! Look at all the stuff you have/do/know!  Not to say I want people to be jealous of me, I want people to give me approval.  I am deficient in acceptance and so I work my ass off to do things to 'dazzle' people.

I am pretty good at it, to be honest, but I want more.  But its never enough.  I need more.  I have to find ways to get more.  So I find something else to do.  Something else to learn.  Something else to conquer.

Doesnt sound too bad right? But the thing is time is infinite.  I only have so much of it.  So I can use it to find ways to be validated, or I can spend it with my kids, with my family and doing stuff for us.  For me or for us.  Sounds like a simple choice, but at the end of the day I still need that validation.